Personal

1-How are you?
Hi there! Iam fine.. I think.
2-Post a picture of yourself.
Uh.. this is my new hair. And I look fat because I was eating a bun.

3-Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Yeap. I wished I was a really popular person and alot of people would know my name.
4-What is your entire name?
Louise Guet Yip Ling
5-How old are you?
18+
6-Age you get mistaken for:
16 -.-7-Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality:
Sagittarius. Mostly yes. I like freedom and partaying and Iam kind of optimistic.. and the list goes on.
8-What did you do on your last birthday?
Um.. I was at home... Doing normal stuff..
9-What is one thing you would like to accomplish before your next birthday?
Well.. I don't know.. maybe learn the guitar?
10-What is your hair color?
Natural: Very dark brown
Currently: Some.. reddish brown called Sweet Pink..
11-Have you ever dyed your hair?
Yeah. This is my 1st time dyeing it though.
12-What is your eye color?
Dark brown!
13-If you could change your eye color, would you?
Nah not really.
14-Do you wear contacts/glasses?
I HAVE TO wear glasses, but I don't.
18-Do you have any tattoos?
No.
19-Do you have any piercings?
No, but I did last time.
20-Left or right handed?
Right.
21-What’s your sexual orientation?
Uh.. straight? Attracted to guys?
22-Do you drink?
Hehe yeah. As in, just abit.
23-Do you smoke?
No.
24-Do you have any pets?
No. :'(
25-Where do you work?
Red Mango and Penang Place.
26-Something you are working on right now:
Saving up money to buy an mp3.
27-Do you have any “rules” about food?
I just don't wanna eat anything I don't wanna eat.
28-Where are you from?
Singapore.
29-What would you say is your best quality?
I.. have no idea. I learn stuff fast?
30-What do you think you’re really good at?
Keeping quiet hahaha.
31-What do you think you’re really bad at?
Running harharhar.
33-Are you a bad person?
No! Mostly.
34-Are you nice to everyone?
I try to be.
36-Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you.
None I've heard of.
37-What is your ideal bed? Why?
Big and soft, with nice smelling sheets. And I need a think comfy quilt. Any height is fine. For the design.. maybe just pretty sheets? And I would like the bedframe to be made of wood.
I spend alot of time in bed, of course it has to be ideal!
38-Did you wake up cranky?
Nope.
39-Do you sleep with a stuffed toy?
Sometimes.
40-What do you think about the most?
Getting a boyfriend hahahahaha.
Okay mostly songs and talking to myself and criticising everyone I see and trying to scold myself and slap myself virtually for being so weird.
42-What do you want to be when you “get older”?
I wanted to be a scientist or somewhere along that line..
43-What are your career goals?
Being a doctor?
44-What is your ideal career?
A fashion designer or some sort.
45-Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
Nope. :)
46-Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
Yes. Both good and bad stuff.
47-Have you ever had an imaginary friend?
Strangely, no.
48-Say 10 facts about your room:
The walls are really empty. No posters.
I have a purple floor-to-ceiling wardrobe covering one side of the wall.
I have baby pink and blue walls. -.-
My room only has younger photos of myself.
My room is the biggest of all the other rooms.
I think it's rather blah.
I like my room.
I wanna repaint it.
It's full of rubbish and bookshelves.
The floor is parquet?
Okay one more. I have a rather useless wall lamp.
49-Do you have any phobias?
Insects that sting and bite? I don't know what other phobias I have yet.
50-Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist?
Nah.
51-Are you allergic to anything? If so, what?
Think Iam abit allergic to alcohol.
52-Ever broken any bones?
Gladly no.
53-Ever come close to death?
Not really, no.
60-Do you have a facebook?
Yes.
61-Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
Yeah.
62-Describe yourself in one word/sentence:
Iam kind of a very boring person with a plain life but I can be really random at times and I somehow think that Iam a waste of space.
63-A quote you try to live by:
"Cest la vie"...?
64-A famous person you’ve been compared to:
Hahaha this girl from T-Ara. Forgot her name.
65-Weird things you do when you’re alone:
Talk aloud to myself. Sing out loud. Sometimes dance spastically imagining Iam in some disco place.
66-Something you do without realising:
Um... How do I know if I don't realise it? Hahaha okay. Keep touching my hair? Start every sentence with um?
68-Someone you’d like to be for a day and why:
Harry Potter. Because then I get to do magic and all the cool shit that he does and live in a huge castle with an enchanted ceiling and magical armours and the food appears magically on the table and the giant hourglasses and ohmygod their classes!! And Quidditch! Hehe Iam spazzing out now... One day is simply not enough okay..

Favorites

70-What is your favorite thing to do?
Sleep. Har. Listen to music?
71-What’s your favorite color?
Purple.
73-What’s your favorite movie?
Harry Potter or Pirates of the Carribean.
74-What are your favorite books?
Harry Potter again harharhar.
75-What is your favorite quote and why?
"Romeo Romeo wherfore art thou Romeo?"
I just like the Shakespearean thing.
76-What is your favorite word?
Uh... I have lots of words I like. Let's go with liason for now.
77-What is your least favorite word?
Wow.. uh.. I don't have a least favorite word. Maybe.. fag?
78-What is your favorite type of food?
Japanese food!!
79-Your favorite ice cream?
Green Tea...?
80-What’s your favorite animal?
Bear!!
81-Dogs or cats?
Cats.
82-Describe your favourite texture:
Hahaha whut.. I like soft textures.. It's like soft and smooth.. abit furry.
83-What is your favorite flower?
Iam not sure.. Daisies?
84-What’s your favourite scent? And on the opposite sex?
Aha! Coconut. Opposite sex: Just.. smell nice.
85-What is your favorite season?
Winter.
86-What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die?
New York.
Britain.
Some quaint countryside or a small town.
Holland?
Maybe.. Hawaii.
87-What are four things you can’t live without?
Water.
Music.
Food.
My wardrobe harharhar.
88-Which mythological creature are you most like and why?
Eh..a centaur? Because that's what my astrological sign is.
89-What’s your favorite television show?
Spongebob?
90-Favorite place to shop at?
Forever21.
91-Say 2 facts about your favorite things:
I cannot see another person having them.
They are probably sent by a special person.

Friends

106-Would you ever smile at a stranger?
Yes.
107-Do you prefer to be friends with girls or guys?
Frankly, guys.
108-Who is someone you never tire of?
XD I guess. She has alot of stuff to say.
109-Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
Um.. not really.
110-Who is your most loyal friend?
Eh... SQ I guess.
111-Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
Not everything. Just most things.
112-If your best friend died, what would you do?
Feel really sad and alone. :(
113-Something you’ve lied about.
That my previous Twitter photo was not taken in a toilet hahahaa!!
114-Have you ever felt replaced?
Yes.
115-Say 5 facts about your bestfriend(s):
They are all girls.
We have been friends for 6 years.
We always buy last minute presents to each other harharhar.
I think we are all really different from each other.
Sometimes I hate them. Lol. No, just annoyed.

Relationships

116-The last person you hugged?
XX
117-Story of your first kiss?
No first kiss.
118-Do you like kissing in public?
Just a little. But in Singapore, this act is often frowned upon.
119-Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
No.
120-You have a preference for boys or girls?
Boys?
121-Is the male or female body closest to perfection?
I don't have a preference. Both are perfect in their own way.
127-What is the first thing you noticed in someone?
Hair and eyes.
128-Are looks important in a relationship?
Yeah abit..
129-What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
The overall look of the person. Everything should be in proportion.
130-What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
The guy cannot be more than 5 years older than me. And cannot be younger than me. Iam abit traditional..
131-Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
Hmm...no.
133-Do you have a crush on anyone?
Not at the moment.
134-A description of the girl/boy you like:
LIKED.
Very tall. Wears glasses. Nice hair. Looks nice too. That is all hahaha.
135-Say 1 fact about the person you like:
LIKED.
He can dance. Wow.
136-If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
"Oh well.." and move on.
137-When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
There wasn't a last time..
138-Do you think someone has feelings for you?
Hmm. Maybe?
139-Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Maybe my mum, thinking what the hell am I doing, blasting songs at this time.
140-Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
Of course.
141-Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
No.
142-Anyone you’re giving up on?
Nope. I've given up already.
143-Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Yeah I think so.
144-Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
No.
145-Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
Non
146-Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
No.
147-Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely for?
No.
148-Is there someone you will never forget?
Yeah I guess so..
153-What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
Eh.. I don't know..
154-What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
Spend the whole day with me?
157-Are you in love?
No.
158-Are you in a relationship?
No.
159-If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favourite thing about him/her?
NIL.
160-Are relationships ever worth it?
Perhaps?
161-Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
No.
162-Can you commit to one person?
Um... Yes...?
163-Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
Yes.
164-Do you ever want to get married?
Hahaha actually no.
165-Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years' time?
No.
167-Do you get jealous easily?
Abit.
168-The last time you felt jealous, and why?
I forgot. Must be some girl having a fun time with her bf.
169-What is your definition of cheating?
Going out with another person.
170-Have you ever been cheated on?
No. Because I've never had a bf. HAHA!!
171-Do you forgive betrayal?
Probably not.
172-Have you ever cheated on someone?
No.
173-Why did your last relationship fail?
I didn't have a last relationship.. :(
174-Things you want to say to an ex:
No ex.
175-A description of the person you dislike the most:
I dislike alot of people..
176-If your first true love knocked on your door with an apology and presents, would you accept?
No.
177-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
NONE.
178-How long was your longest relationship?
I have no relationship stop trying to make me any more depressed. :(
180-Share a relationship story:
Girl likes guy, guy likes girl, girl doesn't like guy anymore, no fate, end of story.


Music, movies and books

181-How often do you listen to music?
Kind of everyday.
182-What kind of music you like?
Alternative rock.
183-Do you like to dance?
Yeah maybe.
185-Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today.
Nope. :/
186-Share a song that takes you to a certain memory in the past.
童话 by 光良
187-A song that’s been stuck in your head:
Now it's 'Settle Down' by Kimbra.
188-Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs:
Fall Out Boy- Dance Dance
The Asteroids Galaxy Tour- The Golden Age
Hilary Duff- Stranger
The Killers- Read My Mind
Coldplay- Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall
Fall Out Boy- Alpha Dog
Disney- The Tiki Tiki Tiki Room (Harhar.)
The Click Five- Empty
One Republic- Say (All I Need)
Stereo Love Remix
189-A book you want to read/have recently read:
I wanna read 'The Picture of Dorian Grey"
190-Describe your dream library:
Very big and spacious, like those libraries in the movies, with those wooden shelves and carpets and all.. Englishy.
191-Last movie you just watched:
Sherlock Holmes the second one.
192-Do you like watching what type of movies?
What? This questions is grammatically incorrect. Anyway, I like Comedy, Sci-Fi and Action. Oh and sometimes Cartoons.


Situations and crazy things

193-You’re in a tattoo parlor about to get inked. What are you getting done?
Must be some small inconspicuous thing.. like a star or some sort. Iam not at a thinking state of mind right now..
194-What’s something you can see yourself going to jail for.
Killing someone.
195-If you could be any character, from any literary work, who would you choose to be?
... Wow. I have no idea.
196-You’re given $10,000…under one condition, you cannot keep the money for yourself. Who would you give it to?
My parents luh.
197-If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
Maybe to change the fact that I quit playing the violin?
198-If you were an element on the Periodic Table, what would you be and why?
Maybe Sodium or some sort. Because Iam unstable and I think very little people get to see me in my true shiny form..

199-If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

Eh.. I.. don't know..
200-You’re an Action Movie Hero. What’s your weapon of choice and the line you scream when defeating your arch enemy?

HAHAHAHA omg this is so funny.. I would choose... Some flaming arrow or something? harharhar I can't think of anything.. and I would scream... "PREPARE TO MEET YOUR DOOOOOOOMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
201-If you could design an amusement park ride, what would it be like?

It would be kind of colourful.. maybe wet.. not roller coasterish.. perhaps something different?
202-What is the first curse word that comes to mind?

Hahaha what else? BUGGER.
203-What the last party you went to was… and when the next will be…

Iam so sad... I've never gone to a real party... Are Chinese New Year gatherings counted? The next should be.. uh.. I have no idea.. a birthday party?
204-Halloween costume idea?

...A witch?
205-How you’d spend ten thousand bucks?

I would save half of it then spend the other half but if I were to spend it all I would spend five thousand on whimsical and useless stuff that I like, then I'll buy clothes and maybe some nice branded stuff.. perhaps a new nice laptop?
207-Would you rather be stranded on a desert island with someone you love for ten years or someone you hate for a month?Explain why.

Someone I love?
208-5 things within touching distance:

My cousin's worksheets.

My mum's waterbottle.

A bolster..

A half carton of drinks.

...The floor...?

A ruler.

My cousin's pencil case.
209-A drunken story:

Never been drunk.
210-What are you supposed to be doing right now?

Nothing really. Iam as free as a fairy.. :>
211-Currently wanting to see anyone?

Kind of. Idon'tknow..  

Woah I took a week doing this. It's. So. Long. o.o

Hahaha my titles are really random. They are actually thought up randomly.


I need sleep but I don't really want to sleep. I don't really want to be awake either. Iam not sure if I even want to exist. There are too many things that happens to me and it's hard to handle them. I mean.. it's not like Iam having a hard time either, but all those emotions, thoughts of people, things, situations. It's really eating me from the inside out. And now I don't really have a purpose. I just want to get over with everyday and be prepared for tomorrow which would be the same I've grown to fear it. It's just.. too plain. And maybe sometimes it's injected with special events but they are short-lived and sometimes rather boring it disappoints me. Well, it's kind of hard to keep up with my high expectations of everything and anything I want seems to be quite hard to get.


Remember how I always say I miss NewYork and the plane rides? Now I wonder whether it was the place itself or the people I was with. I have a feeling it's the people. I miss the people who were with me. In a foreign place away from school and real life, people may act differently, perhaps more themselves. And I think I do like this real personality. Maybe that's what I saw in NewYork which made me fell in love with it along with all the people I met there. I wish I was more daring though. Would have changed things. :(


Goodbye.

Iam kind of emotionally detached right now. I have been for a long time. Kind of forgot how to feel. And when people tell me something I just don't know how to respond, how to make things right, how to comfort them. Iam such a lousy person. I mean I do want to help these people, but somehow I can't find the right words to say. I can't say "it's gonna be okay" because it obviously wont and this would only lead to the person not doing anything to change things. So what do I say? I would very much like to say "I'll always be there if you need anything" but I don't think I can promise to give anything. And in the end we are both left staring awkwardly at each other (figure of speech) and not knowing what to say. And when I don't say anything helpful I come across like I don't really care about the person in distress which is absolutely untrue and it's like so weird and bad and we're at a loss the atmosphere becomes really bad.


I hope I could do something. If giving you a hug would help, I would hug you but it doesn't really change things and Iam really not a suitable person to be giving hugs because Iam so skinny you'll only feel my bones.

Yeah I should probably sleep soon. I mean, it's such a good atmosphere to sleep in now. Rain and aircon harhar. And Iam listening to emo songs again. :/ Heh, I never change.


Today was... below average I guess? But at least I had time to rest. Finally a break from this busy busy week! My legs are aching and whenever I come home I just fall asleep immediately.


Sigh in the end I didn't get to see Foster The People. Oh well.. I'll just listen to my CD then..


I don't think I shall seek anymore. If I do not seek, maybe then it'll come.


I miss people.

It's such a wonder how I can think of different titles for my posts. Indeed, the English language has a vast and wide range of words.


So I finally remembered what I was supposed to post about but forgot yesterday. It was about loving and enjoying what you do. I believe that it is important that we like what we do and we shouldn't be forcing ourselves to do what we do not like. So I try to like what I do and enjoy every moment of it. And this in turn would perhaps reflect in my actions and attitude. Like what you do, you get better results. I mean, if you dislike what you do and then you don't do stuff well, wouldn't it be stupid and a waste and useless to start the thing in the first place? Even in schoolwork I try to like what I do. My classic example would be my Social Studies in Sec 3 and 4. I was failing all the way because I didn't like the subject and the teacher was abit weird (Read: looks pervy) but the next year the teacher change and my dislike disappeared because the teacher was so much better in teaching and I tried to like the subject which I did in the end.. well maybe not really like but at least I didn't hate it. So I studied for it really hard and wrote like a maniac in O Levels and eventually got an A2 for Combined Humanities!! From an F9 to an A2 is really quite an amazing feat okay..


And this time for JC it's Math.Weeelll.. I liked it abit too late. And I still didn't really like it that much.. so I don't know how it'll turn out. But I did try harder than usual.. which is a good thing... right??


And I don't really like it when people complain about their jobs. I mean, if you don't like it, might as well quit and find another job that you like!! There must be someone else who would like your job very much and enjoy it in the process, so don't deprive them of the chance to do what they like it. And if you do not want to change your job, you should learn to like your job and do it well!! No point complaining and be all grumpy and upset. It's really rather annoying.


Wouldn't it be a better place if everybody liked what they did? Or am I being too idealistic and naive thinking that the world would be so much fun?

I thought of something to blog about while in the shower harhar. But I forgot what it was already. Damn.


Right now I feel so dejected. It's like Iam talking to someone who doesn't even want to talk to me. It's hard to carry a decent conversation with these kind of people you know? I'd rather you say you don't feel like talking to me right now. At least I'll know when Iam being pushy or anything. I don't want to FORCE people to talk to me. I just want people to listen on their own accord. Not just one ear in and out the other. This is absolutely fake and I hate it. I know it's not like I have alot to tell and it's not like my life is fantastic or interesting or anything. But wouldn't it better if someone could be involved in what you did and really liked it? Even though it's just listening? Is it that freaking hard to listen? Yes, so people like to eavesdrop on other people's conversation and do not bother to really listen with their heart on their own conversations. The irony.


Yeah so Iam a whiny little bitch who likes to complain about everything and anything and all I care is about myself. And people wonder why I always don't talk and keep to myself.


I thought I was taking a chance and I thought it was gonna turn out alright.

Iam such a grumpy person. I think Iam constantly angry at anything and everything around me.


I used to get bullied last time. My mum always say I get pushed around by my friends all the time.. I still am.. A little. Yeah, I get bullied. My friends stole my stuff and hid them and wouldn't give them back to me until my mum wrote a letter to the teacher. And I didn't even tell my mum until she found out. I lied to her that I forgot to bring it back. And I think I used to cry all the time. And at one time I told myself I wouldn't cry anymore. And at the other point I started to bottle evrything up.


Iam a bomb ready to implode anytime.


But then I was kind of stronger. I try not to let people take advantage of me and I stay clear of friends who are just so fake. In primary school and lower secondary school I had people who perhaps just took pity on me and allowed me into their circle of friends.


Iam just rather happy I have real friends right now. I may not really like them all the time (harhar) but that's really just me. I believe they've done the best that they could.


Iam just trying to be a better person in my own terms. Like maybe.. a less hostile person?

It's 6 minutes to Christmas!! Maybe a magical feeling would suddenly befall us on the stroke of midnight. What would I write about tonight? Actually I can't think of anything.. Hmm..


Okay let me talk about my tumbler. It leaks water when not placed upright so yesterday while I was racing cars in the arcade I forgot about my tumblr and placed it sideways instead. So water flooded my bag and submerged my two phones in water. Well I wasn't really using two phones. One of them was actually my mp3 but anyway they hit water. And lo and behold my two phones were busted. My phone is fixed now though, but my mp3 currently cannot be switched on. T.T Sigh.. all my music.. :( I feel so sad. How can I sleep or read books or do nothing without music now?! SIGH.


Oh it's midnight now!! Merry Christmas people! And have a Happy New Year!! Next year will be better. :)

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
Nope.
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
Yeah.
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
Aggravated and happy.. I don't know...
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
Of course! Being friendly is nice. :)
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
Nope.
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
No.
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Brown shirt and pink shorts. Weird combination, I know.
8. How often do you listen to music?
Almost everyday? Mostly at nighttime.
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
Jeans. Har.
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?
..Nah.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
Antisocial!
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
Nope.
13. What about ‘R’?
-.- No.
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
Are racing games considered?
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
Abit.
16. Are you going out of town soon?
If they say Orchard Road is town, then Iam constantly out of town.
17. When was the last time you cried?
Eh.. I forgot. Last month?
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
Not really.
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
Again not really. It would be nicer for my irises to be a lighter shade of brown though. But it's fine now.
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
Uh... No?
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
A whole bunch of people coming to my house. Iam hiding in my bro's room right now.
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
Um.. maybe..?
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
No.
24. What are you sitting on right now?
Iam lying down on my bro's bed. Good thing he's not at home hehe.
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
Nah.
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
Hmm.. not really I guess.
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? My mum. She told me to switch off my lights. I replied "mmm.."
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
Nope! :D
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
OceanPacific I think.
30. Does anyone hate you?
I don't know! But I think there's bound to be somebody who hates me.
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
Lol no.
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
NO.
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
No. It's scary.
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
Primary 5.
35. Did you have a dream last night?
Uh.. no.
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
I haven't said it I think..
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
18+5=23 Oooh old.. but no.
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
Ehhh.. I guess?
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Yeah they have nothing better to do. -.- No?
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
Hell yeah.
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
No. Duh.
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
No. I'll hide at home.
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
Not really.
44. What’s the best part about school?
Being able to be with friends and being able to learn!
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
YES. -.-
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
Last time was in Sec 4.
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
Yeah...
48. Were you single over the last summer?
Sadly, yes. :(
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
Of course not. It's been better now.
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Making Christmas cards? Own time own target though.
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
Nope.
52. Are you nice to everyone?
I try to be.
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Yes.... Uh.. Iam not sure.
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
Yes.
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Kindof?
56. Do you think you like someone?
Mixed feelings.
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
NO!
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
Guys. The conversations are so much more interesting/ weird/ funny.
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
Yes.
60. Do you hate anyone?
Hate is a very strong word so no.
61. How’s your heart?
It is gooood. And fiiiine...
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
Yeah. Wish it didn't happen. But it did. :/
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
Of course.
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
Noone I guess? I have not that much to talk about.
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
Nope!
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
I hope not?
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
Uh... I don't love it but if the reason why they cry is acceptable, go ahead. :)
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
Hahahahahaha no.
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
SQ. I wanted to hang up when she said there was McDonald at A's place.
70. How do you look right now?
Kind of not very pretty. My hair's a mess today.
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
Think so?
72. Can you commit to one person?
Yes.
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Not yet.
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
Yes.
75. Did you wake up cranky?
Today? No.
76. Are you a jealous person?
Just a tad.
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
I haven't been in one, I don't know.
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
Hmm.. uh. Yes.
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
Uh. I.. really don't know....
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Make Christmas cards.
81. Last person you cried in front of?
Was it YT?
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
Yeah I guess.
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
Maybe?
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
Texting. Lol.
85. Are you over your past?
Yes.
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
No.
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
No.
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
No.
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
Probably yes. But then my mum would wake up and start raging.
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
Hmmm.. no.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
Unsure.
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
No.
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
For the last time no.
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
No relationship.
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
Ehh.. I.. think so...?
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
Hahahaha my mum? Okay yeah. She looks young for her age okay.
97. Who do you have texts from?
Alot of people luh.
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
"GO CHASE HER!!" Then cry and wallow for some days and move on. :(
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
No.
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
My heartshaped sunglasses. :>
101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
No.
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Yeah duh.


I know some of the answers are abit vague but I really don't know the answers to those questions. Iam unsure of myself.


Until then, GOODBYE.

Someone please stab me in the heart when I've got makeup on. Then I'll be able to die dramatically with the surprised look on my face and then I'll step back from the killer and then I'll fall to the ground with my arms spread out and this flowy dress spread around me. Such a cool way of dying.


No, seriously. I need to get out of this freaking hellhole. Iam sick and tired of people talking to me like I don't have a purpose in the things I do. As much as a zombie Iam, I do have a reason for my actions. So do not question me.


I've become very interested in blood recently. Okay.. maybe I've been interested in blood for quite sometime now. I like how blood is so red and rich and dark and it kind of transfixes me into staring at it for a prolonged period of time. And the way it flows is different from any other type of liquid. It's heavy and somewhat thick. I don't really like the smell though, the iron smell. What's better than blood itself is blood on something else.


Okay Iam a freak. Whatever.

I do have my own rules. Just two rules. I think. 1. Never look back. Never regret your past, don't go searching for any form of the past. And let the past ALWAYS be a past. Applies to people as well. If you are out, you are out forever. 2. Always aim for the best and do not ever settle for 2nd place. Right now, I admit I do not really adhere to the rules since number 1 is constantly getting broken and I have to slap myself to prevent any more wallowing. And I'll always be breaking rule number 2 because whatever I do, I never become the top, always being behind somebody else. I do want to be the best, but I don't work for it. That's my fault I guess. I don't like competitiveness and the result of it, which is trying too hard.


Painted my nails matte black since I do not have any more for the week. I feel bad ass. Well, not that I have any chance to go out or something, I think. But if I ever do go out I'll wear my studded bracelet too, for effect. Hahaha!!


I don't like communicating with annoying people for too long and the littlest things can annoy me. Seriously, it annoys the hell out of me that I really do not want to continue the conversation but I do, out of courtesy. If not, I think I would have lesser friends than what I already have.


Nothing at all and nevermore. If you do want to be my past, do not regret it, because I will not. Moveon and moveover. No action, no effect. You do have many flaws anyway. Bye.

I had a headache today. And certain things I did either made it better or aggravated it.
Sleeping made it worse.
Occupying myself made it better.
Thinking made it worse.
Darkness made it better.
Crying made it worse.
Music made it better. Slightly
Brightness made it worse.
Moving made it better. A little.
Overall it was the thinking of stuff which made it worse. As in the non-educational stuff.
Bye.

I would like to write long letters to people telling them my heartfelt thoughts to them.
If only I could pluck up the courage.
Handwritten letters in this modernised world should only be saved for people that I think are important to me and those that I know will be by my side forever.
What if I wrote a person a letter and in the end we drift apart? The letters lose their meaning and should be burnt immediately.
If only we could see whether the people around us are permanent or not.
Iam very confused about this kind of relationships because in my opinion, I think I go into a relationship too easily. Sure I could make friends easily, but I could lose friends easily too. Like, I would be really close with a person for say, three months and suddenly we are not that close anymore. We become hi bye friends. So, I don't know about my own judgement of people around me..I mean they are nice people and all. I just can't distinguish this line of closeness. You know the circle of types of relationships? Like a circle inside a circle in side a circle? Circle of friends? Yeah, I can't put definite circles around people. It's really quite exasperating.


Well, I got to wake up early tomorrow.. Not like Iam gonna sleep soon anyway. Cheerio!

I wonder how people who don't really know me see me. So I've thought of some stereotypes or descriptions that people may come up with when talking about me. Harhar. I doubt people even talk about me since Iam like practically invisible. I think. LET THE BULLETING BEGIN! YEE HAW!! (Sorry, I just don't really want to study anymore.)

• The tall thin girl.
• The Keller OGL.
• The girl who has alot of hairclips.
• The one that looks abit like an ahlian.
• The girl with the face that make me want to slap her. -->Well, I figured that out because my default face is really abit misleading.
• The girl with the weird curly hair?
• The girl with the scary stare.

Eh, I've got no more. I mean, I don't think I have alot of descriptions anyway. I look like any average person in school. So yeah.


I should probasbly cut my hair. But I have a love-hate relationship with each but Iam tending more to the love because honestly, how many people have natural curls like me? (Albeit the frizziness) I do like the curls but I hate the inability to tame it. Grrr.


Monday's the day. The unofficial day but, still the day. I guess it wouldn't be any different from now since I always slack. Damn. Iam incorrigible. Never change. What's wrong with me seriously. Somebody should take me to some therapist and administer electrocution on me or something something.